Aspirations for the Week

There are times that are, well… harder than others as I’m sure you guys know. Times in our life that seem to test us and I guess maybe try to teach us valuable lessons or so I’d like to think. Lately I’ve been going through a tough time with my anxiety and trying to work through it. It’s not something I’ve ever tried to hide with you guys, in fact I’ve actually made a conscious effort be open about it in hope that others who have struggled with the same issues would find comfort in knowing that they weren’t alone in it. There were times I used to be embarrassed and ashamed and other times I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry.

Trust me,.. that happens more often than you know.

But then I started to realize, why should I be so scared to tell people about it? It’s not like I’m an alien or some crazy person born from out of this world. I’m a normal person who happens to battle some demons and I’m working on it. Aren’t we all working on something in life?

No one is perfect.

I have wanted so badly to just wake up one day have be “cured” of this whole thing. To just have it go away because I’m tired of dealing with it but sadly its something that can’t happen with the snap of a finger. I have everything great in my life – a great career, a dog I love, a home for myself — consistency. I always thought, shouldn’t I be SO happy because of all this? I mean, no I’m not married but everything else I have and I should be so grateful for it and well – yes, I am SO and I mean SO grateful for it. More than anyone could ever understand. To be honest I thank the universe every morning when I wake up for it but that’s a whole other topic for another day. What I have realized is, life CAN’T be perfect. Maybe eventually it can, but can you imagine being born and having everything go perfect from birth to death? What kind of life is that?

We have to live and learn and grow from it! I have been blessed (and worked very hard) for what I have in my life and well if anxiety and depression is the card I’ve been dealt then it’s the difficult part I need to figure out in my life. And mark my words, I will. I never give up on anything and I will get through it.

Not sure why I wanted to talk about this today but I had a conversation with my dad about it all yesterday and it had my mind racing and thinking. He told me I need to seriously work on it and one thing stuck in my head. Deal with things “day by day” is what he told me. He is SO calm/collected and I strive to be like that one day. I told myself I’m going to do exactly that. Instead of freaking out about things that haven’t even happened in the future (which I tend to do ALL the damn time) I’m going to try to live in the moment and live day by day, starting with this week.  Hence the name of today’s blog – my aspirations for the week.

Just a little reminder to start the week that no one’s life is perfect no matter what their blog or instagram may actually look like. We’re all working to better ourselves in some way, shape or form. Remember that.

xoxo, Olia

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